late news...

i was supposed to be posting these pics last week but i got so busy with our exams...argh! that two hellish day exams!!!! thank god we just had three exams at the first day... then just four at the next... [we have nine subjects, you know]... that reminds me, we still have exams for our computer subject! eeek! and that would b this monday! uh-oh! got to study! err, okay, got to study after typing this...

anyway, we went to my bro's college campus [as i've said on ACHINGLY BITTER]... since my bro's pc had a little dilemma, i brought my laptop to his pad and guess what? i was able to be online!!! hahaha! how is that huh? well, i was so giddy with that fact coz it was my very very very first time to be online at home... hehehe! at first, i thought i won't be able to do it coz my freakin' bro forgot his password! tsk! but then we called up the costumer service, so it was okay.... yeheey!!! wohoo! *claps* *claps*

before going home, we had our lunch at this very cool place.. i really liked the ambience... SO VINTAGE!!! they have this theme of the world war II.. and they have posters of marilyn monroe, the first beer, vintage paintings.. tsk! tsk! really amazing... they must have difficulties in collecting all those stuff... plus, the food itself is one of a kind!!! thinking of those foods we ordered make me starve... hahaha!

plus, their food is one of a kind!!! thinking of those foods we ordered make me starve.. hahahaha!

BEFORE:

AFTER:

i have my new wedges!!!! yipee!!!! i used to wear wedges when i was still learning to use high heeled sandals... that was way before it has become 'in'.. but now that it's already 'uso' and i already know how to walk with heeled sandals, i haven't got the chance to buy wedges.. just now... and my mom bought this for me!!! yipee!!! ahaha! ow, did i mention that i still have to pay to my mom for this one? lol! yeah, this wasn't free afterall.. tsk! tsk!

ever wondering how was my operation diet going? tehee! let's just say, we bought a whole HONEY CAKE during our trip there.. hahahaha! so much of a diet huh? tehee! but f.y.i., i never gained nor loose weight... now im wondering, is that a good news? err, coz i really don't know... i wanna loose weight but all i ever did is to eat less of rice but eat a lot of 'healthy' snacks... so should i be worried? hmm? aaarggghhh! im confused again!

Oh well, at least the honey cake's still yummy... YUM! ^_^

it's our town/city fiesta today... you're probably wondering why i typed town-slash-city... it's because i don't know if this place is officially a city... we just had our plebicit but i there's no official proclamation!! tsk! tsk! i just hate being confused! grr! anyway, yesterday was the opening day... and so we had our parade... [another] yipee!!!! wahaha! my first time to be the band majorette... ahaha! and i tell you, i was the prettiest band majorette of all schools! [reader: *throws up*] lol! conceited much? ahaha! seriously, i am so glad that the looser i was talking about before was, fortunately [for me, unfortunate for her], still is the assistant band majorette!! hah! good for her.. hahaha! im such a bitch, ain't i? lol! okay, i'll shut my mouth up since i don't have any business with her... i don't want to have any arguments with her since i don't need to stooped down to her level... hahaha!

That MS.YELLOW LADY is me.. ahahaha! [maybe that's the reason why im using yellow in highlighting my words? ahaha!]

my mom only took two shots of me since she doesn't know how to operate my cam.. [another] tsk! tsk! tehee! ^_^

a guy...

my friends usually ask me why we broke up.... i told them the reason... it wasn't really his fault... it was absolutely mine... or maybe he had, but not so much...

im not saying he wasn't my perfect dream guy... actually, he almost was... ALMOST... coz there really is no perfect dream guy... but it's just that, im just so dumb.. so immature.. so.. I DON'T KNOW!!!!!



AND SO TODAY, IM NOW LOOKING FOR A NEW GUY... HAHAHA!! KIDDING! im a one-woman type, you know... and there's still a feeling left.. so it wouldn't be that easy...

but if someone might come, hopefully, i just hope it's someone better... SOMEONE LIKE THIS :

achingly bitter..

yeah, that was what i felt while i was wandering around sm.. it would have been fine for me being alone in the mall for some time while my 'rentz were still in my bro's campus.. but i saw the studs in xavier highschool.. walking graciously in their own groups with their school uniform..

seeing them made me go back to a memory four years ago.. the memory where i passed the entrance exam for xavier high school but didn't study there because i didn't get the scholarship grant just because my freakin adviser had this hidden hatred towards me.. confusing, eh? oki, ill elaborate it a lil more..

this exactly what happened.. my grade six adviser hated me because my sis won over her daughter during a beauty pagent.. now, of course she couldnt do her vengeance to my sis, so she did it to me.. she deliberately gave me low marks.. so i wasn't the valedictosian when i graduated in elementary.. and that's the reason why i didnt get the scholarship in ateneo.. my scholarship was on the hands of my valedictory certificate..

and so when i saw the xu high school this morning, i thought to myself, if i just have that scholarship, maybe im wearing their uniform too.. maybe they might be friends afterall.. maybe today, i won't be feeling bitter at all..

wanted: lay-out artist?!

*sigh* all the staffers are complete.. the associate editor..
the editors... the writers... everyone! except for the lay-out artist... grr!
it's kinda frustrating, actually.. since the editors have been finalized, all i could think of is what i would say for our first meeting... i have so many plans for our school publication... and thinking that there's only one spot missing makes my head ache! grrr! can anyone suggest somebody? ahahaha!

oh well, my plan are these:

im planning to enter our school for the schools' press conference... i just miss the fun of this school competition... it has been, what, four years since i last entered this kind of competition.. *sigh* then im planning also to have at least two meetings a week to discuss anything about journalism... they have to know what they're writting about, you know... if it's a news, they have to know what are the rules of it.. the do's and dont's... anything! and besides, this will be like a review if ever we managed to enter to the prescon..hehe!

i am also planning to publish at least three school papers this school year... yeah, three.. it's supposed to be two but since the second ish wasn't published last school year, we have to publish it this year..

hmm... i just hope my writers are sedulous enough to do all these... but then, i know they are.. hehe! im just so excited!

menacingly temptatious

waaah!!!! after a non-stop shopping and travelling last summer, i promise myself never to buy any clothes, accessories, sandals, books, etc... but when i got to the mall yesterday, my hands were very itchy.... i wnat to get my hands on this.. and that.. and those... the result? well, let the picture do the talking... hahaha!




there are still a lot of those in the trunk... hehe! i'll take a pic for those later... hahaha! im such a typical shoppaholic... argh! it irritates me sometimes... but hey, im just a human with weaknesses!! tehee! oh well, i promise this would be my last shopping spree for the whole year! cross my heart! wahehe!

making a fool out of myself.. again!

damn! damn! damn! if i was just foolish before, now im a jerk, a butthead, a total looser!




damn! i don't know what's gotten into me earlier.. i was chatting with my family while txting to my friends.. then, unsensibly thinking, i was already changing my inbox where his number and other messages were. after, i was poignantly reading all his text messages.. then i just found myself calling him!




actually, my only plan is to know if he's still using his number.. i just want to hear a single ring..! but thanks to my ever-reliable fone which has a lil defect on both of its earpiece and mouthpiece, he was able to answer it! darn! surprised and caught off guard, i immediately turned it off.. oh shit! i know he can still recognize my number.. AAARRRGGGHHH! i want to hit myself! damn! DAMN HIM FOR MAKING ME MISERABLE!! DAMN ALL MEN IN THE WORLD!!!

eye-opening

from this past few weeks, i've been observing myself.. as i had said before, i was confused.. confused of how i feel.. of all the things regarding to him.. and now it has finally come to an end.. i finally have answers to all the questions that i have..



i have always keep on thinking about him without any reason why.. in the middle of the class, he just pops out on my mind.. i always recall how sweet he is.. how cute that smile he has..



then when my classmates talk about the 'happenings on their lovelifes' i always keep on thinking.. "what if we're still together? will we be doing that too?" there are so many what ifs i have on my mind..



and that's then i realize that i finally understood what was happening to me.. I STILL LOVE HIM.. and yet, i was the one to blame for everything.. because of being such a coward to get hurt, i easily give him up.. im such a total looser.. at school, i appeared to be so mad at him.. [even if there's nothing to be mad for] to hide everything i feel inside.. an irrational jerk.. yeah, that's exactly what i am right now..



i guess ill just have to accept the consequences i made.. and besides, he's not the right one, isnt he?ü

independence day...

im so bored in our house... got nothing to do. err, actually, there are a lot of things to do. like making our report in filipino and reading some books that have been stored on my closet for like 48 years..? haha! but i don't know. im just not in the mood to do all those craps... something's bugging me.. and that's something is something i actually didn't know. pretty confusing eh? yeah, that's what i've been lately.. *sigh* so since im bored to death now, maybe ill just right about our independence day since it is our independence day today.. hehehe! so here it goes.. just be ready not to get drowsed... it will be very long... haha!

it's been ages since we were freed from the spaniards, americans and japanese. but the battles seems not to end. there are still a lot of people who want to control us. but sadly, they're not from any other countries... they're our own people. and that's even harder to accept knowing that they're our fellow filipinos. the politicians for one... they want nothing but to take control over us. use their position just to have full power and all the wealth they could have.

not so long ago, people joined forces to turn down two presidents. one, to stop dictatorship and the other one to stop his corruption. with this method, people are starting to put on their minds that this might be a solution to every problem they had. everytime they don't like someone's governance, they would just simply join forces and their wish will be granted. but is it really enough?

when i read bob ong's ang paboritong libro ni hudas, it gave me a little bit of sense of what was happening on our country. he said that if we'll get used to doing it, we might just loose the effect of it. and he's right, isn't he? people kept on complaining and complaining. and the government keeps on promising and promising. but what was really happening? or should i say is there any happening today?

i know, i know... not all politicians are like that. fortunately, there are good ones left too. that maybe the reason why i don't want to pinpoint anybody. [baka patayin pa ako. haha!] so what's really the real solution? im not a political analyst so i really don't know a thing about it. but still, no matter what the cricumstances may be, we filipinos are still holding on to our beloved country. still fighting for our rights. and i guess that's best for now.

first week of school....

a week has ended... and yet, it's just the beginning. seeing all my friends made me realize how i miss them so much!!! i hadn't saw them for two months since i barely go out during vacay. but with the two months of being separated, it's just like our junior year with the extension of another ten months. the crankiness is still there, the teasing, the howling and the vociferousness! nothing's really change... im so glad about that...

such photogenic friends.. hahaha!

kiss! kiss! mwah! mwah! hehehe! my ever-cutie but stubborn friend... MAY2x

laugh! laugh! laugh! ha! ha! ha! im boring, ain't i? hahaha! i just got nothing to say... hehe!

sanitary napkin models... ahaha!

emote!!! ahaha! so pathetic... ^_^

first week on their duties... our CAT officers... chi! ahaha!

how i wish this year would never end... coz if it will, i will badly, badly miss them...

confused...

i think i've had enough of surprising news this day. and seeing my EX this afternoon is too much. and i don't even know why his presence still affects me!!!! aargh! i just hate this feeling... any help?

first news...
my seatmate told me that he has already a new girl. and i couldn't care less about it. but of course, it's natural to us girls to be curious about our ex' new apple of his eyes.... right? tell me puh-leez... and she also said that im much prettier than that 'new girl'... haha! at least that's a consolation... hehehe! but she didn't say that just because we're friends, did she? hmm... anyway, if i couldn't care less about that news, why do i feel something, should i say, very hurt? is it because i still feel something for him? or was it just my ego because he found his 'new' first?
*confused* *confused* *confused*

second news...
he's still here on our town... i really thought that he was already at cebu to start his first day in college. but another friend told me that he was driving their car [his grandfather is our school principal]. and again, i couldn't care less! but then, why do i feel excited on seeing him? is it because i miss him and that i still love him? or i just feel really pretty about myself that i want him to regret about our breakup? i'd like to agree with the latter, but then....
*confused* *confused* *confused*

third news...
i've seen him after class. he was again, driving their car to get his lolo... actually, i didn't see him. i don't want to look at him coz he might think i still have feelings for him. and if you're asking if he saw me, well, i don't know also. maybe yes, maybe not. and i want to hit myself for feeling so sorry in not seeing him.
*confused* *confused* *confused*

what's wrong with me?!?! i don't love him anymore, do i? or was i just feeling too paranoid to think that he's still feels something for me and that i was acting like i don't like him anymore? i mean, c'mon! he already has a new one! my friend even told me that maybe he was just using her as his 'panakip butas' but heck.... i don't think he's that kind of guy... for at least five months, i discovered the real him and i don't think he's like that. and my last question is, WHY AM I STILL WRITTING THESE THINGS IF I SAID COULDN'T CARE LESS ABOUT HIM?!?!?!?!?!?!
*confused* *confused* *confused*

random messages...

so many things had happened since i last posted my blog so i just put all those things in one.. hehe!

WHAT A TRIP...!

i was finally going back home to our so-called city.[*sigh* finally, i can have someone to talk to. at my bro's pad, i think im gonna be mad!!! hahaha!] the bus trip was fine. but after that? argh!!! i don't wanna remember!! since i only have 50php, i don't have any choice but to take up a public van than to ride an airconditioned bus. and it was really, really, one hell of a trip! the van was so full, the people were all sweaty and smelly.. plus, the lady beside me didn't want to close the window because she said it's too hot!! and to think i was near the window! the picture? i looked like witch with all my hair getting tangled, my face savoring all the dust from the road!!!! aargh!!!! i promise myself never to ride in a van again! promise!!!!

OUR NEW BABY...
yeah, we have a new baby.. hehe! but i don't mean a baby who does nothing but sleep, cry, drink milk, then cry again.. ack! no, i don't mean that. what i meant is that, rusty has a new playmate/rival... yeah, we have a new puppy!!! she is just so cute. a black, female, labrador dog... she was like beyonce reincarnate [our labrador dog before who died].. cute! cute! cute! hehehe! here's her pic:

CLASSES STARTS TOMMOROW...
*sigh* i can't believe the two-month vacation is over... and i can't believe classes will already start tommorow!! oh well, im excited to meet my friends though.. i miss them.. to the MAX!!!!! but just the thought of 10 months of studying makes me sick! haha! and since tommorow will be the first day of school, i'll be inactive soon. and my dad even told me this morning to stop surfing the net and focus first on my studies!! ooohhhh.... i can't imagine my life without internet... it's my only outlet!! but looking into the bright side, i still have my phone to keep me in touch with the net. haha!

GOIN' GAGA OVER MATTEO...
hahaha! JAMIE, if you happen to read this blog, im sorry, im just crazy about your guy.. hihihi! anyway, i had seen him on go kada go last night. at first, i reall thought i wasn't able to watch it. coz while i was still on the bus, my mom txted me that go kada go's already starting. and so i didn't bother to turn on the tv and just talked to my dad at the sala till six. but when i checked out my 'rentz room [where my mom is], i saw kim and gerald on the tv. that only meant one thing, go kada go was still on!! i kept on blaming my mother on telling me earlier that GKG was already over while i was on the bus. but, oh well. good thing i've got to watch my matteo before it ended. hihihi!