achingly bitter..

yeah, that was what i felt while i was wandering around sm.. it would have been fine for me being alone in the mall for some time while my 'rentz were still in my bro's campus.. but i saw the studs in xavier highschool.. walking graciously in their own groups with their school uniform..

seeing them made me go back to a memory four years ago.. the memory where i passed the entrance exam for xavier high school but didn't study there because i didn't get the scholarship grant just because my freakin adviser had this hidden hatred towards me.. confusing, eh? oki, ill elaborate it a lil more..

this exactly what happened.. my grade six adviser hated me because my sis won over her daughter during a beauty pagent.. now, of course she couldnt do her vengeance to my sis, so she did it to me.. she deliberately gave me low marks.. so i wasn't the valedictosian when i graduated in elementary.. and that's the reason why i didnt get the scholarship in ateneo.. my scholarship was on the hands of my valedictory certificate..

and so when i saw the xu high school this morning, i thought to myself, if i just have that scholarship, maybe im wearing their uniform too.. maybe they might be friends afterall.. maybe today, i won't be feeling bitter at all..