bitttersweet memories

yesterday, around 6 p.m

i just have stepped out from the internet cafe which is just near the church. i was wearing a cap that day so i looked up and saw dark clouds lurking in the sky. though it was still early, it looked like 7 p.m. i sighed, December is really near. it has been weeks that this every-afternoon-rain started. i started to walk near the road, waiting for a vehicle to send me home.

our house is a ten-minute drive from the town proper. so in that hour, i was having difficulties in getting a trycicle. i waited. later, drizzles then touched my skin. i looked up just for me to look down again since it hurts my eye. i tried to look for a cover, but i thought, it's just drizzles. it won't make me wet. and so i continued my waiting and the rain is starting to become stronger.

minutes after, i finally found a tricycle. i get in and finally went home. it was night and raining and the air is so cold. i couldn't help but shiver and rub my hands while in a ride. it was such a very lonely cold night.

same time, same place, not the same day....

it was valentine's day and i am so happy. he gave me a rabbit stuff toy and three red roses. very corny yet it's the thing what girl's loved on their guys. the mass just ended since it was wednesday. t'was our first time to attend a wednesday mass. my friends went home ahead of me since they just live at the capital of the town. but i lived far from the town, and he lived one barangay after mine. so we both waited for a tricycle. that night, i couldn't see the stars above... only meant one thing, a rain is coming. but then, that wouldn't ruin my day. i was just so happy.

the drizzles started to come. he said, "why don't go look for a cover while i wait for a tricycle here?" i don't want him to be the only who would get wet. if he would, then i would too. "no, i won't leave you here," i said to him stubbornly. he smiled and put his cap on my head. "wear that, i don't want you to get sick."

so we waited and waited until we finally found something to sent us home. night, raining and the air was very cold. he could feel that i was shivering. he took my hand and covered it to his. gently rubbing it to give it some warmth. i looked at him and our eyes met. it was like saying "i love you" by just staring at one another.

and when i finally got home, before i went out on the vehicle, he said, "i love you". i responded too. while i was walking to my house, i thought, yes, it was a very cold night. and yet, i couldn't feel any coldness in my heart.